I'm sitting in the den, where my parents just recently moved the computer and sunlight is creeping through the blinds. It's lovely, really. Lately I haven't been too focused on anything, haven't been worrying about how I'm going to do anything or get anywhere, just letting myself be taken there. I feel so much lighter, just letting things come to me has taken a great weight off my shoulders. I sound stupid lol.
No, but seriously, I think I'm shaping my happiness right now. I think it's shaping up quiet nicely. Everything is coming together; aside from the usual teenage angst, boys making no sense, and my own thoughts being more confusing than anything. I'm not trying to sugarcoat anything or make it sound alright when it's not, if something is fucked up, it's going to be out sooner or later... you know? I just prefer to convey my feelings sooner than later.
On another note: I got my prom dress and Matthew got his tux! I'm so excited. It's going to be lovely full of pretty girls and after parties and a special evening all to ourselves! Alright now enough of the bullshit... I dread prom sigh. The idea has been run into the ground (I thank my lovely boyfriend for that one) and I don't even look forward anymore lol it's cool! No, but fucking seriously, I look like a doll in my dress = )
Aside from that nothing unusual is happening... Nothing unusual ever happens anymore. I can't tell if I'm happy or not... I think I am, yeah.
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